i find it so sweet whenever i see my daddy kissing mummy on the cheek and saying "goodbye mummy" in a slightly sweeter and softer tone than usual without fail every single morning before he leaves for work. be it them having cold wars or just normal days, he does it everyday.
it makes me feel touched and glad to see the strong love that exist between my parents despite them coming from totally different backgrounds, having two different personalities. their love grows stronger day by day, and its obvious that they are so into each other just by seeing the way they talk to each other.
and thats why i believe in love. :)

mrs teo questioned by pretty gold shoes today. i told her it was meant for sprinting during pe. thus she told me that since its meant for running, i hafta be first in class in accounts lesson..

rizal came to school today! we had this performance by the mcc. so ya!

learnt a lil something during econs today. like finally!
kristine came up and hugged me during break today and thanked me for writing her a testi. i was shocked, cuz it was unexpected. hehe. hugged my nadia, lays and naughty liar veron. it was sucha huggable break. haha. i whined for a looong time before hardi finally gave me a teenyweeny piece of his chicken. like finally!
gp was totally slacking in the comp lab.
i was first to reached accounts class, thanks to maya's reminder. i was just a few steps in front of wei yew! haha. anyway, i went in and shout "mrs teo! im first in class!!" and she smiled. haha.that means i dont hafta explain for my shoes anymore. lol.
2 periods of lunch with no other classes having lunch with us is somehow weird. its like we cant do much with anyone. so sad. but i had a great time talking to pris jiayu and meileng. sugar daddy came during class and when he realised that me and maya were sitting together, he was like "oh you two sit in the corner to produce the megahuge noise pollution in class huh?" keke. but so far, maya and i had not been that noisy la.
i ran out of class during gp to hang out with kira, teddy and sotong. haha. poor gabby sotong have no food to eat in the end.
pe was the usual.
maths was fun! i love maya! we talk non stop! we make so much noise.at one point, i was babbling in chinese teaching pris one qns without realising i was speaking too loud. mr soh was lik "ahem! channel 5 pls"
and the best fun of all...



maya preggies! haha.
the picture is so cute la. hahaha.
i didnt get to see kira before i left for home. :S

my sister had decided to join choir... it was such a surprise.

last but not least.
im amused by how superficial humans can be.
no one gives too much of a damn when your ugly/not at your most glamourous/uninteresring.
and things just change completely when its the other way round.
just like the amount of people that viewed akira's friendster. the number before i put that picture up was 26 btw.
now, who says look isnt important?

akira finally bought new shoes! like yay!!! finally!!
and im so proud to announce that i played a major huge role in choosing the shoe! and the shoe is so pretty, i like!
its just funny that although we intially planned to buy shoes with the same colour, we eventually gave up that thought because mine is gold and its so hard to find gold shoes 4 a guy..and in the end, the shoes that he bought ended up almost similar in colour to mine! haha.

im suan by sooooooo many people today. especially teddy. and he refuse to put my real url in his blog la! so bad...

im becoming the people i hate.
yet, i dont care. anymore.

thats what happened when people take you for granted, and shits come pouring in at you.
you changed.

revenge is sweet.
im working on that. karma is being too slow. i have no patience for that.

time will tell. for now, im still me. :)

an extract from my conv with yithann..


`yeE-Ha[Ng] says:
adsifaidmfids lor
a world where love is scorned as an illusion. says:
oh i asdfghjk c
``yeE-Ha[Ng] says:
asmfkamskfmak ^^ good!
a world where love is scorned as an illusion. says:
sdfghjk :)
``yeE-Ha[Ng] says:
yeah .. asfsafsaf yes
a world where love is scorned as an illusion. says:
wertyu y?
``yeE-Ha[Ng] says:
qwertyasdfzxcv lor
a world where love is scorned as an illusion. says:
ertyui duno
``yeE-Ha[Ng] says:
stupid la.. told u so many times its qwertyasdfzxcv
``yeE-Ha[Ng] says:
liddat also dun asfokasfao understand
a world where love is scorned as an illusion. says:
asdfghjk wtf~ u neva sdfghjkl explain

:) bored people do stupid things. even things that doesnt make sense.

im glad akira like what i did to his friendster. i thought his reaction would go like " my brother got see my acct one leiz... yadahyadah." cuz tt was wat he said las yr when i suggested somethin tt i now have forgotten. so ya. good! my efforts not wasted.

yesterday was ridiculous, rm400 somethin was spent on the italian restaurant we dine at. and we didnt order much la. thats the main thing.

had the family photo shoot yesterday. and mum came up with a crazy idea to ask me and my sis to dress up in kimonos and take pictures la. the kimonos arent even the real one, fake one. so anyway we still took la. i look goddamn flat. lol. picture will be out on 20th jan so ya!

and i have nothing so say anymore. im just bored.

it is contradicting. im a perfectionist when i set my heart out to do something, yet, i dont believe in perfections..

anyway,
i was suppose to go out with nadia today, but things last minute popped up, and i kinda expected it so it was postponed.
and i went out with akira instead to get back my ezlink card at tanjong pagar.

mr teddy just love calling me a rainbow la. just because im oh so full of pretty colours and hes not. and my shoes is the pot of gold la..
you should see the way he and gabby sotong made animal noises. damn hilarious. haha.

but well lets talk about the day today.
me and maya took one whole day to figure out how to use our bluetooth. yes we are idiots at this la, but you should see our happy faces when we finally figured out how to use it. especially her motorola one. and this means, we will be taking so many more pictures especially since we sit together la. haha.
lessons were ok today. me and maya were shouting out our what-we-think-was-right answers during econs. and guess what, miss yap ignored us completely like we dont exist. i was so pissed la. if we actually said wrongly, least she can do is correct us, but she just ignored us. thats so rude. so after about 15mins we just couldnt be bothered, we ignored her lesson as well.
even mrs teo always listens and response to what id got to say even though im not making sense most of the time. so ya.

school was ok la. normal ba. moses slim down so much la that maya couldnt tell it was him.

so anyway, went to take my ezlink card la. like finally! so now im holding on to 2 ezlink cards. mine and akira. while akira is holding on to his brother, marcaroni's card. hahaha

then cuz well i heart the geisha thingy so so much right? so kira brought me to esplanade and bought me this flyer thingy of the geisha movie that is only available in japan, cuz singapore dont distribute this kind of flyer la! and its so pretty!!!!! im so happy lo!
all i left is the postcards and the poster. and the collection can be considered complete. :D
then i bought the yummilicious brownies from mrs fields for us to eat. yum yum!

if i had all the time in the world, i would have wanted to spent the day la. yes theres nothing much to do there, but then theres something about that place that makes it so nice for me to want to stay there. tau?

then anyway, rush back to wdlds to collect my bag from lexine la. finally my bag!

and lidat lo.

the rest shall be left unsaid. haha.

jiayu meileng pris and maya.
i still feel so bad cuz i feel that i haven contribute much la. if theres anything you guys still want me to do, just throw the task at me and ask me to do k? im so sorry.

my family loves me so much, they wont leave me alone.

all i wanted once i reached home was lie down on my bed, hug my pillow until i feel good enough to get up again. and guess what...

when i went to my room, i locked my door.
my sister knocked on it, so i let her in, and she spent 20mins telling me about her day. so when she finally left my room, i locked my door again.
right after that, my oma knocked on my door, so i opened the door again, and she asked me to judge which dress looks nicer on her.
after that, i locked my door again, and just as my body reached my bed, my mum knocked on the door again and asked me to judge the 3 bras that she bought and what i think about it.
thinking that no one is gonna bother me anymore, my sister just hafta knock on my door again and tell me more about what happend in school.

*roll eyes*
am i like some god that you all need to ask advice from? where my moment of peace.
oh ya.. now. finally..

i forgot to add that after pe we all saw our beloved sugar daddy again. so sad that hes not in our class anymore la. and i took his mentoes and bite the other end of it to take the sweet, the irritating alene way. haha.

and during our lunch break. i was so bad la. sheri aini shaiful and amiru were walking at the parade square towards the staircase, i took my waterbottle and squeeze some water down a few metres away from them. and they were so cute la cuz whilst amiru was looking up at me, sheri they al, esp sheri! was looking at the water in amazement. it took her awhile before she realize whats going on. damn cute i tell you. lol.

now i hafta go write maya her letter.

tata.

pe was hell. i hate pe.
height and weight was taken today, well im 2cm taller i forgot my previous weight, anyway its just 41kg.
after that we hafta run like some idiots for 5 rounds. god. the legs wanted to run more, run faster but breathing was such a difficulty. the throat and the lungs felt like they were burning. that almost killed me. and the final lap almost caused me to puke out my gastric juices. im not exaggerating, i felt it coming but i push it back.
and i look ugly in that stupid pe attire la,so unflattering... can we change the design of the attire?

anyway. went to bathe. and the water was ice cold. it felt ice cold to me at least. by the time i finish bathing my fingers were numb, i couldnt feel a thing for a minute or two. not much people actually bathe, dirty dirty. especially when we have a long day.. oh god i cant imagine just letting my sweat evaporates and have lessons the whole day just like that la.

and gabby is horrible anyhow beat people only.

i forgot everything about accounts. horrible man. mrs teo was kind enough to let us have the test next week.
genetically modified food project seems tough. i hope we can make it lo.
econs was funny. we were sabohing people all along. and when ms yap asked us who was the father of economics, we said mr yap. haha.
management was hectic. we were trying to cover as much as we could, so mrs yong was just zooming everything in an almost extremely fast pace. and in management, we learn that the grapevine is the so called more sophicated way of saying rumours and gossips. so when mrs yong asked whos the active grapevine ring leader of the class, everyone said my name la. like wth. haha. although its sound sophiscated but makes me sound pretty bad la. haha. thank god mrs yong decided to stop in time before we got overloaded with information. cuz its true, i couldnt absorb anymore nearing the end of the lesson.
we were released early for maths. its a once/twice a year only thing. so ya. the reason was simple. we hadn't even start lessons.

thanks for suaning me teddy. :)

for every time i cry, another wall is built up to protect me even more.
for every moment im happy, a wall is torn down cuz its not needed.
its up for you to decide what you want actually.either way suits me.

today was a balanced day. the good and the bad.

the bad, lets not talk about it la. you know, i know. i just dont want it to be repeated or reminded or whatsoever.

the best thing was my boyfriend class rep leiz! haha. so funny la.. i didnt see it coming.. haha.

and our class is now ruled by the mats community. class rep is shaiful, no 1 mat in our class, then asst class rep is amiru, no 2 mat in our class. still got somemore la. majority is the guys. last year was girl power. so ya. fun la!

funniest thing of all was when dear adelena voted herself as asst class rep. the whole class went quiet for while la. anyway, while the 3 people went out so we can vote, when adelena's name was called. no one raised their hand and the whole class was so quiet before everyone started laughing. we thought we were evil until we saw mrs teo laughing uncontrollably behind and we laughed even harder. mrs teo so bad la! haha.
and to make adelena feel better, we choose her to be the welfare rep. when miss yap asked, what is the welfare rep suppose to do? everyone said "buy food" together. lol.
and stupid shaiful tried to sabohed me. when zhenghang was chosen as the av rep he was like ey ask the best fren to be asst av rep. right alene?

god. best fren has lost its meaning ever since last year. best frenz means ur worst frenz. haha.

we got ferrero from miss yap sweetie!
talk about her. she really too short. i was lost when it comes to finding my class this morning la. i and lynnest lost like fuck la. thank god lynnest spotted out classmates. and thankfully now our class is so easy to find liao.

i heart my sheri cherry. and her bf rocks.
sheri is right, im starting to go to the wild side. i cant help it. hormones.. ha.

julius treat me billy bombers and i got me long await banana milkshake! woots woots.

and i got to spent time with akira after that. we were in the midst of not talking to each other, and so while waiting for the train. his shoulders looked tempting, so i just rested my head there and it felt good and i know that feelings were not lost yet. just that too much had been happening... i dont know. i just hope its not a mistake.

Virgo is not a jealous person by nature but with Sagittarius these feelings will be quiet easily
aroused since Sagittarius, a great believer in personal freedoms, will find it hard to confine
him/her self to the restraints of a faithful relationship as he/she does not think that love
means possession. Sagittarius will also find it tough going with Virgo who believes in
having financial security and planning for the future; Sagittarius treats this subject as a
minor annoyance at the best. Dreaming the impossible dream is normal for Sagittarius who
never worries what the bills will be like next month or where the grocery money is coming
from, and surprisingly, these dreams do have a way of coming true from time to time which
is terribly unsettling for Virgo. As both have an interest in outdoor activity this could bring
them close for awhile, but only temporarily. Sharing an interest in other less important
matters such as travel is hardly enough to base a lifetime commitment on and expect it to
work.Since Virgo is not one to place too great an emphasis on the sexual side of life and
does not have the same appetites that Sagittarians have, Sagittarius may well feel that he or
she is justified in finding a new lover from time to time which will cause many fights. This is
not a very good union; not a match made in Heaven.



do you think its true? i dont know. haha.

[[edit]]

whee! first day of school today!

today was sucha gorgeous day, almost everything was purfect. and that was beautiful.

i reached school pretty early because my dad dont want to get caught in the horrid traffic jam later on, so thank god kimberley always arrive school god damn early la. early morning bitch about people already... aahhaa

then boyfriend arrived, he give me 3 geisha cards/"hangers" which is so god damn beautiful and although i didnt tell it to his face, im hopelessly in love with the 3 geisha cards thingy. thanks bf! :)
oh and if anyone happens to see any "memoirs of a geisha" postcards around while going to the cinemas, please please please grab a stack of it? pretty pls? hehe.

so gena they all all arrived school one by one and i was so happy to see them. miss them all so much la! so excited to see maya, i thought she wasnt thrilled to see me, but she was la! haha. we are partners in class now. keke. do await for more noise pollutions... and the very loud SHHH by aini. lol.

then saw gracie, she gave me my birthday prezie. something from the body shop of course! haha. inside this very very pretty red box is a small raspberry body shower gel and a bar of raspberry soap and the box smell so yumilicious, its like eating a sweet without using the mouth la. damn damn nice. thanks gracie sayang. :)

and when the bell rang, we got lost in the parade square cuz miss yap too short, and therefore we dont know where on earth our class was lining up. we were like fools standing at one corner desperately searching for our class la. haha.
grace said the pledge in an ultra whiny act cute voice i rolled my eyes at her and laughed. keke
classroom third floor leiz.. so mafan. i miss the old classroom. but ok la.. we will have our fun.

and we had our gp test. i actually answered the humanities way la, i only realised i was wrong when i was telling akira about my gp in the bus. oh god, there goes my expectations...
"prisons should emphasise rehabiliation than punishment" how far do you agree?
dont you just love the topic prejudice and crimes? haha.

our class was the first to be released so we got nice seats to eat while most people are standing. dont know why also.
oh and just as we stepped out of class, there was this cute malay boy who was lost in finding the toilet. at first thought he was a teacher cuz he look pretty old, but when i saw him looking at the toilets in puzzlement, i knew hes a student. and when i turned around, maya and grace exclaimed he was cute too. haha. and thats the only cute 1st-3-mths student that caught our eye today...
so ya. love the classmates. and i made akira go all the way up to the 3rd floor and made him stay there until i hafta go down for cina test.

we were late for the test. but it doesnt matter. i turned around and looked at the answers of the guy behind me, cuz i dont know how to do the first section. he gave me the god damn shock face cause i dont even know him la. then i compare my answers with grace when she sleep, all different la. i got a feeling i wont score well for this, cuz i anyhow do.
but who cares la hor.

during the talk, i was made to sit in front cuz all the classmates haven come la. i was the fourth one.. right in front of the principal. but then, me and grace still talk throughout la. i couldnt sit still for a minute. cuz i dont feel like sitting and listening la!

and when we went down to collect the handbooks, we were laughing cuz it looks like the hello kitty craze, all lining up waiting to go up to the halls.

after half a year of unspoken cold war, just as i was stepping out of class, fauzie happened to be behind me and he said "hi". boy was i shocked, didnt expect it. but ya, hopefully friendship will be renewed. hes pretty sweet even as a friend after all.

and ya. thats about all. home tutor wasnt very interesting, just talked a little and no more.

OH! sherri just pierce her ear, i also want lo! haha.

annnd the cherry on top of my beautiful day is.........
S H O P P I N G ! ! !

intitally was just me and kira celebrating our 6th mth in orchard, but shaiful grace and pris happened to want to go town and i cant resist saying no to them after not going out with them for sooooo long! so we went town together!

we wanted to eat at the food court but then no seats, so we ate at kfc. did a little window shopping at zara, the clothes are pretty disappointing cuz sales what.. and we talk alot la. hehe.
went to pacific plaza to look at the mambo wallet that grace said was pretty, it was lo, but $79 for a wallet didnt seem worth it. so we tried to look at the other surfer brands, but nothing much caught my eye.

before me and akira parted with them, we saw "aiyoyo" [grace say one. not me. i 4got her name] in the adidas shop. she look thinner than on tv la but more frail too.

anyway!! we went to wheelock, and bought my crumpler! yeays! went to the toy/anime shop, and the doll i wanted since last year cost $59 and not $100 someting la, so im going to buy one soon i guess. :D
and we couldnt find the shoe akira wanted... maybe he will buy the one like my adidas boots leiz! haha. the gangsta shoe! lol.

and we went to taka and bought me bra!! at first wanted to buy the green pierre cardin bra as intended, but then i feel it doesn suit me cuz me no meat. so looked around and there was this green beedees bra. so end up buying that lo! he buy for me one! cuz he owe me one! hehe.
and in taka, while i was changing some ringgits, there was this pretty lady who said "where you got your shoes from, it looks very nice" omg it was so unexpected especially when grace said it was ugly in the morning. lol. anyway. i was so flattered i was in cloud 9 from the money changer to wisma. sooo flattered la. for once i didnt bothered to shoot akira back when he tried to suan me a lil n all. i just too flattered too high to care!! lol.

at first he want to buy me flower, but i want to flaunt my flower ma, so i ask him to give me tml morning but i doubt he will lo. cuz i just doubt he will lo.. haha.

i love school. haha.

and for a perfect ending for this pretty day...
i got my keyboard back. :D

happy 6th mth. :)